Thursday

So, last week I noticed that I had grown a gap in between my two front teeth. At first I was super pissed because I was not trying to go back to my old teeth, pre-braces. But now it has miraculously disappeared, and I have found myself equally as pissed as I was when I first discovered it. I'm starting to think that I have a problem with change. Why can't things just stay the same once we've become content with the situation?
Take my life for instance. Towards the end of last semester I was feeling very good about things. I was liking school, making friends, getting good grades, and falling asleep naturally.

(Interesting fact: the song "Change is Hard" by She & Him just came up on shuffle. Not only is this relevant to my current rant but I was planning on complaining about the mass amounts of people telling me that I look like Zooey Deschanel, who is the "She" of She & Him, but since coming upon this strange coincidence, I'm beginning to think that maybe we actually are very similar and I should learn to accept it)

Since returning to Milwaukee, everything has gone wrong. Just kidding. But things changed, as they always do, and I am still trying to adjust to the new semester and everything that has come along with it. Or should I say, everything that hasn't come along with it -- no roommate, no Sylvia, no sleep (unless hypnotized), I also had no friends on the list but that would be a lie, because I do have a few friends here. I just forgot for a second because I have spent the entire day (since getting back from class) in my room alone finishing my scarf, drawing a little bit, and reading a book for class. It's nice to spend time with myself, and I'm glad that I'm someone who can admit that, because I know a lot of people who seem to feel the need to constantly be surrounded by others. I can understand that. Sometimes when I'm alone, especially here at school, I stop and think about how at that particular moment in time, there is a large possibility that no one is thinking about me. And I don't mean this in a "woe is me I'm so alone" way, sometimes it's cool to feel completely alone. It's freeing in a way.